As the days come closer I become even more introspective. I love that I've finally gotten to that point in my life where I truly realize that I, in fact, don't know everything and I have SO MUCH more to learn. It's exciting and overwhelming because I also realize that time on this Earth is short, too short for me to have the opportunity to learn everything I want to know, see everything I want to see, read every book I want and so on.
So what do I do?
I read as much as I can, see as much as I can, Love as much as I can, feel as much as I can and so on...
I've had a fear now for a while that perhaps I won't find my true love, my man, "the one."
But I also have huge trust issues and I mean HUGE...
I mean, if your father left your mother the day she tells him she's pregnant and disappears completely, I think you would have issues too. (But I'm trying)
I was recently told by someone 10 years younger than me that -if I don't decide to trust any man, then I probably won't be with any man.
Such wisdom...I mean, why didn't I think of that? It's not that I don't want to trust. I have actually trusted and had that trust completely destroyed...So what? What now then? Keep going, keep trusting, keep hoping, keep loving....
One day I'll get it. One day it will all make sense.
Until then I'll enjoy France and keep going.
-R
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